A love never known.

Naked in the rain, bruised beaten and cut.

Helpless and hopeless, eyes finally shut.

Each drop a dagger that pierces the soul.

Too many lies have taken their toll.

Clouds start to recede to a distant ray of light, brighter than the sun.

A sprouting seed.

An Angel appears through the clearing skies.

She wipes away his tears and never tells lies.

She’s been there for years, watching and waiting for just one to appear.

With a heart full of love and compassion and care.

She pulls off her wings and stays with him there.

She heals his soul and carries him home.

Without wings now bound to create heaven on earth.

Burden

Sometimes I feel I’m a burden not even Christ should bare.

I hate wind !!!!

I absolutely hate the wind in Gardner, blows all my smoke away.

My ideas are bound by no walls.

Sex on Fire

Lay where you’re laying
Don’t make a sound
I know they’re watching
They’re watching

All the commotion
?
Has people talking
Talking

You
Your sex is on fire

Dark of the alley
The breaking of day
Head while I’m driving
I’m driving

Soft lips are open
Them nuckles is pale
Feels like you’re dying
Your dying

You
Your sex is on fire
And so
Were the words to transpire

Hot as a fever
Rattling bones
I could just taste it
Taste it

But it’s not forever
But it’s just tonight
Oh we’re still the greatest
The greatest
The greatest

You
Your sex is on fire
You
Your sex is on fire

And so
Were the words to transpire

And you
Your sex is on fire
And so
Were the words to transpire

She never appreciated.

My:

Creativity

Music

Quick Wit

Intelligence

Political views

Sense of Adventure

Love

Passion

Childhood Issues

She didn’t even appreciated the paycheck.

The last 11 years have been one big lie.

Her loss.

46 & 2

My shadow’s
Shedding skin and
I’ve been picking
Scabs again
I’m down
Digging through
My old muscles
Looking for a clue

I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could’ve been
I’ve been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I’ve been hiding in

My shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow’s shedding skin
I’ve been picking
My scabs again

I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could’ve been
I’ve been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions

I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I’ve endured within

My shadow
Change is coming
Now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I’ve been clinging to
Forty six and two ahead of me

I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through

I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through

See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me.

Chemical Courage

Tonight has been long, I’ve smoked every breath,
Tryin to feel so alive, tempting death,
I’ve smiled at the angels, but I fear where they live,
I’ve taken too much but nothing to give

My chemical courage, has come to an end…
The night once my lover is no longer a friend.

Well tonight has gone wrong, cause I said what I said,
I’ve been left all alone, to lie in my bed.
Thinking, I’m just a fake, that nothing is real,
If I’m asking to be saved I must learn how to kneel

Now my chemical courage has come to an end…
The night once my lover is no longer my friend.
Playin tricks on my eyes, shining light on my tears,
I pray for a new day to hide all my fears.

I can’t find my way, back to where I felt safe.
Now my chemical courage has come to an end,
The night once my lover is no longer my friend.
Playin tricks on my eyes, shining light on my tears

~Jack Savoretti

Unconditional Love

The limitless unconditional love of a dog is amazing. She snuggled under my chin and licked the tears from my cheek as if she felt my pain. Or, maybe she just liked the salt.

The Two Lives.

I read something profound yesterday.

“Each of us is given two lives; the one we learn with and the one we live with afterward.”

~ Glenn Close line from “The Natural”